|Artwork: Laurie Burnham|
Flying fish...following its bliss.
Let's pretend for a minute that you've read a previous post regarding claiming a prize. It was called "Claim Your Prize"..... surprising and witty title huh? But you know, if you need a refresher head on back and give it a read.
It's okay. I'll wait for you here.
So now here you are with your prize in your proverbial hand, cosmic hand, whichever one you're using. Do you know what to do with the prize? Because you can't just show up for the medal and then stand there like a doofis. You have to go somewhere with it, do something with it, evolve with it, nurture it. I admit, your prize carries some responsibility and sometimes it might seem scary.
After all, you can't unring a bell, can you? (Cliche!) The question is this: what do you do with your prize when you claim it but you're still at a crossroads? What if the prize carries with it more work and a little more risk than you were expecting? Maybe it doesn't even seem like a prize anymore.
Here is something my mom liked, so remember to thank her someday if you ever see her.
When you walk to edge of all the light you have
and take that fist step into the darkness of the unknown,
you must believe that one of two things will happen:
There will be something solid for you to stand upon,
or, you will be taught to fly.
The Leaning Tree, 1975
Rebuilding the Front Porch of America, 1997
You can be religious or secular in your reading of this. It really doesn't matter. Faith of some sort can be found among all walks of life and all philosophies. Faith in knowing that solid footing is always out there no matter what you choose might be the answer to your questions. Just take a step and see what happens. You took a risk back when you claimed the prize, what's happened since then? Are you happy? Are you okay? How do you feel inside your skin?
There are very few things in life that can't be undone or changed back to a better version. Some things really are irrevocable, and for these sorts of decisions and actions you have to be sure not so much in the making of the decision but in whether you can live with the consequences of it. When it comes, however, to decisions that can be undone in some measure, that don't hold the very weight of the world or the fabric of your psyche in their making,choose the prize and take the path pointing forward!
It really is okay to care for yourself first and foremost every once in a while. Trust that when you get where you're going, there WILL BE solid footing, and even if there's not, you'll know how to fly.
|Photo: Laurie Burnham|